I've been going through a rough time lately. A teen neighbor boy killed himself a couple of weeks ago. I've been really struggling since I found out. He was a great kid that loved animals. He was so full of potential, but took his life due to bullying.
My neighbors were saddened for a couple of days, but it really effected me. He really bonded with my pets, especially my guinea pig, Coco.
I haven't been sleeping well and I haven't been motivated to do much lately. Yesterday was the worst day. I made the mistake of Googling an article about it the night before and read a few comments. The neighbor kids were especially horrible yesterday and really getting to me, though I have been more sensitive and irritable than usual. It was actually the first day that I had gotten into real clothes, too.
I've been especially sad about the lack of effect on the other neighborhood kids. This was their friend and he's gone due to bullying. I would have hoped that this would have made them nicer, and not ruder, especially to adults.
Today, I talked to one of the neighbors who are also irritate by my next-door-neighbors. They also knew the boy that committed suicide and it felt good to talk to someone else that knew him. We talked about what he would have wanted. I was glad to share some good memories of him, even briefly.
I know that everyone handles grief differently. I've never dealt with such a premature and preventable death before, and I haven't handled it well. I'm starting to feel a little better and getting over the sadness. I've caught up in my classes, as I fell behind a little. I'm going to catch up on housework today and hopefully feel up to exercising tomorrow.
Thanks for reading!
- Hot-Mommy
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