Mother's Day has always been tough for me. I've never really had a great relationship with my own mom. My mom has been out of my life for 3 years. Even though it's been 3 years of no one openly rooting for me to fail, making up lies about me, and complaining that I don't buy them expensive enough stuff (no one in that house works, by the way), it still hurts.
Every year for Mother's Day, my birthday, or Christmas, all I ask for is a lie free day. In 15 years, I've never gotten it. Usually, it's accompanied by theft. My husband and kids can be pretty self centered, which gets to me. Although I wish I could prioritize myself more. I probably wouldn't weigh as much as I do now. I have to clean up their constant messes and problems, so I come last.
This time of year was definitely the wrong time to start over trying to lose weight. Despite feeling hungry all week (making me a little cranky, if you can't tell) and walking daily, I'm up 7 pounds. This usually happens when I start working out, building muscle and all. It's temporary, but still sucks.
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