Starting Over (Yet Again...)

I am trying to get serious about losing weight yet again.   I was doing well when I started this blog years ago.   Hubby and I mixed business with friendship, and unsurprisingly, it ended badly, causing hurt feelings on both ends (even though they were in the wrong...) and triggered my depression and abandonment issues.  I'm now heavy than I was when I started this, but that's ok.  I'm starting to see the light at the end of this depression fog.

Lots of stuff has happened since then, as well.  I have changed careers.  My kids are now a teen and a tween.  My mom cut ties with me because I got tired of how toxic things were and put up boundaries (I'm such an ass for thinking that I don't deserve to be treated badly, right?).  Cue more depression and more weight gain.  I lost my dog that was almost 14 unexpectedly in her sleep.  We adopted a 6 month old Sheppard-ish mutt a little over a year ago.  We have a 3 month old puppy that we've pre-adopted and will get in about a month.  We're all dealing with the unknown right now with this quantity being lifted.

I'very gotten good at taking pictures at flattering angles and Snapchat filters, but it's done little to actually improve myself.  I a, trying to be more authentic and stop hiding just for the sake of peace.  I want to be able to people a bit better, too, lol.  I am an introvert by nature, but want to make some real friends.

From being cooped up during this quarantine, I was craving to see nature, even if it is just an artificial man made park, so I took the dog for a walk at the local park.  It was nice to see greenery instead of houses.  My son was with a friend and my daughter was at the store with hubby, so I took our 1 1/2 year old dog to the park and listened to my mp3 player.  It was nice to just be me for a minute.

Take care!